Sojourns

i may have been rendered
faithless;tho' hav'nt yet surrendered
it'll take the nile or the amazon'
to extinguish the fire that lights
my insides,maybe even not

i may the seagull thy jested
upon;who knowingly never rested
seeking something beyond gull-thoughts
who flew higher than his powers
jonathan livingstone,maybe even not

i may devour glory galore
or rest upon the deep sea floor
my mind devoid of these vicissitudes
would know solace in only the
milestones,maybe even not

and undaunted by lows i rise
seeking aurora in the desert premise
wandering soul towards the north i stay
and only the whole arctic could
quench me,maybe even not.

An ode to 'the second coming'

the footsteps fall unheeded to the ground
silently amidst the stunned crowd
the wind gushes past the parched earth
laden with rasperous dust and sand
all upon this unfortunate land

the echoes of nothing saunters far
like an empty stream flows on mars
an unborn kid who suckles the udder
it lies upon the mother's chest
the obnoxious silence thus unbles't

awoke from the millenia slumbers
the half beast arisen under
the baked sands and strifes galore
moves towards the holy hell
where surreal wars together dwell

the eyes now cant stop their fate
as they rest b'neath the sinking blade
the second coming has marked the time
where impending powers of holocaust
stride to end the suffering caus't

intezaar

समंदर किनारे एक लड़की
सांझ की किरणों में
हर रोज़ की तरह शब् में ढलने का
इंतज़ार कर रही थी

रेत की चादर में
डूबते सूरज को अलविदा कर
वो चाँद की दस्तक का
इंतज़ार कर रही थी

उस तन्हाई में बैठ कर
शायद वो किसी के
आने का
इंतज़ार कर रही थी

सलोनी काया
अंधेरे में घिरती हुई
बूंदों की रौशनी से अपना
श्रृंगार कर रही थी

उसको देख के
मैं वहीं थम गया
जहाँ से मेरी धड़कन
रुकने का इज़हार कर रही थी

किसी सोच में
डूबी थी वो शायद
और मेरी रूह उसी सोच का
दीदार कर रही थी

अचानक उसने मुझे देखा
तोह ऐसा लगा जैसे
साँसे चलने से
इनकार कर रहीं थीं

मैं तोह रो ही
पड़ा था
और उसकी आँखें भी बहने का
इंतज़ार कर रहीं थीं


कुछ कदम भी
मीलों से लग रहे थे
उसकी नज़र मुझे चलने से
लाचार कर रही थी

जब वो मेरी ओअर
दौड़ कर आई तोह ऐसा लगा
न जाने कब से मेरी बाहें
उसे थामने का इंतज़ार कर रहीं थीं

खो गई वो लहरें
वोह चाँद,वो सूरज
मेरी दुनिया बस वो ही
साकार कर रही थी

और खो गया वो समंदर
जिसके किनारे
वो लड़की मेरा कब से
इंतज़ार कर रही थी

a wish!

O God make me a child again
so i can do whatever i like
bathe in the rain,dance in the sun
and spend hours gazing at the sky

i miss those times when
me and my brother would run up the stairs
lay down on the still warm summer roof
and found mickey mouse in stars

or my first sweet crush
on the tallest boy in the neighborhood
and my heart did those crazy somersaults
whenever my way he looked

i could shout at the top of my voice
when i was the happiest
and mom would hug me when i cried
wiped my tears after hours of fights

i used to beat up every boy i knew
and played truants in the twilight
holi used to be a public affair
when we sprayed colours at everyone in sight

bring me back that joy of abandonment
that unadulterated laughter,those unending smiles
take away this pretentious grown-up world
with wishful thinking and lots of sighs...
O God make me a child again.


(thanx pallu,u know hw i got d idea of writin dis one)

escape!

I want to run away somewhere
where there is peace and quiet
no hollers of everyday long
no expectations,no competitions

for once i'd like to be on my own
and not an overgrown child in my parents' cradle
where there'd be no failures looking in my face
and no ugly words 'i told u so!'

i'm tired of being a doormat,a dishrag
i'm tired if trying to be someone i'm not
i'm tired of taking complaints all day long
i'm tired of being called the black sheep of all

my dreams ,my hopes were sacrificed long ago
at the altar of your wish
now i die each moment of the day
but i'm so unlucky,even then i live

i look at my doom each day
as my mind desegregates and withers away
the pent up emotions flow from my eyes
in all the darkness of the day

if i dont escape,i'll go crazy
my mind refuses to kill my body
i sit for hours with a blade on my arm
but my brain fails to acknowledge

so i'll pack my bags and run away
from this depression,anger,misery and dispair
my life beckons me from death
i'll hold on to whatever is near

Life goes on..

(To Vikas who made this sketch,and thus gave my mind food for thought..keep drawing pal)




my head rests against the pillow
i lie in a deep sojourn of my mind
the naked darkness envelopes my whole
emnating from the sky

i remember the happenings of my youth
i seek the remnants of some joy
as my present is nothing but numb
an empty shell of a boy

the journey is a thought process
bringing the ghost of christmas past
i'll take u to the summer when
the seeds of this present were cast

i played along happily
along the stream that flowed nearby
then suddenly in slow motion'
rain fell down from the sky

my feet were streaked with the wet earth
the husky effervescence enveloped my mind
i felt the mud moulding beneath my hands
as i created my first figure with thine

enter now:the ghost of christmas present
i lay unknown on this berth
for i was taken straight from childhood
to an unyielding adult

my creativity was lost in the tomb of imitance
as art does not bring food to the table
the boy who once played abandoned
now lies chained to the daily syllablle

i do not wish to see the ghost of the future
as my present subdued my hungry talent
who had felt the need to create
which in this world of material is irrelevant

my tired mind shuts its musings
as i have to get up early tomorrow
to go to work,which i do not love
but life goes on,even with sorrow..

Across lingual barriers

Jogan

tere daras nu taras gai
hanju akhaan cho dulleya
main teri jogan balleya
(craving for your look i sigh
a tear fell down from this eye
worshipping thee,my love)

shaam savere naa tera japdee
raataan katdee kalleyaa
main teri jogan balleya
(from dawn till evening i take your name
the nights then i spend alone again
worshipping thee,my love)

aeho jehi preet na lagge
es rog ne kitta jhalleya
main teri jogan balleya
( love shouldnt be this hazy
it has made me crazy
worshipping thee,my love)

heer nu chhad k jaan waaleya
ae raanjhe tu kitthe challeya
main teri jogan balleya
(darling where you begone
leaving your love alone
worshipping thee,my love)

hun ishqe di maar nu samji
jad man tere naal ralleya
main teri jogan balleya
(now i know y love crushes so blue
since the day my heart found u
so i worship thee,my love)

mitr,saheli sang ni lagde
te toon v saanu bhulleya
main teri jogan balleya
(friends do not see me anymore
and even you forgot my name amour
still i worship thee,my love)

hun taan mainu chit na aawe
teri pal pal yaad sataawe
dil ch vasan vaaleya
najraan de kol v aaja
aesi aas ch baithi rehndi
nit boohe agge sohneya
ae teri jogan balleya!
(now i lost my senses too
every moment i miss yoo
darling love,in my heart you stay
one day you will come this way
with this hope sits afore
waiting and wanting,at this door
worshipping thee,my love)
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its my frst attempt to write in a language i dnt knw well.but the result satisfied me.shows poetry knows no language barriers.i have translated in english side by side as much as i could.still if there remain mistakes u are welcome to correct me.
(p.s.i made the sketch myself too.amateur,i knw.but she was in my mind before i started writing.no stolen picture could have suited her)